what do I do now?

I am so negative these days, even I cannot believe it.

I feel like I can never be happy again. It's like, I'm in a different world to everyone else, I just feel like I don't belong here.

I have few friends who supports me, and yes, I've been trying so hard to be happy, well at least act like I'm happy when I'm around them. Because I feel like, if I don't act like I'm happy and everything is alright, it is going to affect their moods as well. And I want my dearest friends to stay happy.
And I think I did smile a lot when I was around them. But, really, that fake smile I put on was killing me.


It really did hit me hard, because I did not get what I deserved. And all my teachers told me those things I've written down on the paper was great. And what I said was great too.
It's really surprising, because a decision of one single person can bring some people down a lot. More than you could ever imagine.

I really do try to be positive and sometimes I feel like I'm happy again. But then, these thoughts keep on coming back to my head...


Why did I even come to this country? I really do not think it is worth all these unhappy things happening to me...


I just want to be left alone all the time, I feel like suffocating whenever someone is around ;(





I know if you were here, Grandad and Auntie, you would listen to me till my tears dries up and not say anything. I miss you :(

原宿★

原宿行って来るーっ

一人でまったり？みたいなねｗ

月曜日だから、FOREVER21とか空いてるといいなああっ

爆弾焼きも食べなくてわ　(ﾟ□ﾟ(ﾟ□ﾟ*)

あ、もちろんタピオカも飲みたい♪

めっちゃ楽しみだーったくさんいい写真撮れるといいな　(*´∇｀*)

ばいばーいっ★

Japan is just fun.

I'm having so much fun and freedom here, I don't want to leave.

It's shopping everyday for me!! :D hehehe

but the life is so cruel sometimes, well, depends on the way you take it though...

The time passes so quickly when you're having fun :|

When I get back to UK, I won't have much time to relax.

I'm dreading for the results day, and have been for like 2 weeks now :(

Anyone else with me?

I'm just thinking, with the help of 2 nightmares I've had, "What if I don't get the grades I need?"

Everyone says that I will, but, if they see my test papers... they are going to be surprised. Let's just say that.

Well, If I fail them, I'm gonna think of an alternative then.

I hope y'all did amazingly! <3

Disney Sea!

So, I went to Tokyo Disney Sea with dad.

It was AWESOME!!

I seriously felt like I was not in Japan.

I went on this roller coaster 5 times...

I sat on the front row once, It was SO FUN!!


Nothing can beat Nemesis Inferno ( I know, I can't spell ) at Thorpe Park though!! haha!






The day was so hot, I got a little tan :D
Took pictures with Goofy and Ariel too ;P I spoke to Ariel, in English, felt so weird lol.








Can't wait to hit Tokyo Disney Land next week!! :D










I'm gonna go out for now... I wanna finish reading "New Moon" finally. I started reading it again :P


BYE!

Bored.

HEY :D

I'm bored :(

So I'm just gonna do a random post about my favourite songs! <3

1: Photograph - Nickelback

Wow. So Meanigful :')


This is one of the songs I've heard that really meant so much to me and actually made me cry!


I love how this song is very meaningful yet they manage to make the song not depressing... If you get what I mean lol.


"It's hard to say it, time to say it, good bye..."








2: Mean - Taylor Swift ( Haha of course!! )






This song is one of my most favourite songs by TSwift! ;D


This song is about "how to handle" people who are mean. ( According to Taylor. )


Well, I think that this song is taking the mic outta meanies, saying "hey, you are mean to me? Well I'm better than that." That's the way I take it anyway...


And this song actually relates to my life too, because this song made me realise people who are mean to me are not worth my time!! 
So since I've heard this song, I've sorted my life out so much :)






Okay I'm tired for now... more to come later. :)